Identity Theft!

My identity has been stolen! By none other than Miley Cyrus!!!! hahahahahaha. Ok, I'm kidding. Well...Sorta... You see, I heard yesterday that Miley legally changed her name from Destiny Hope Cyrus to Miley Ray Cyrus. If that is so, she has now legally changed her first name to what has always been legally my last name, and her middle name, legally to an alternate spelling of my middle name. Next is she going to take my first name too???? I like Miley, and I find this hilarious, but its kind of annoying too...

Btw, my sister does have Peter Pan! Hopefully I'll get it back tomorrow.

~Samantha~

Come Back Peter Pan!!!!

Whats up with the title? Simple really. My sister stole my platinum edition Peter Pan dvd. Ok, so I'm not positive she did, but I pretty much believe it. Why would she do that? Because, she just moved in with her friend Amber, who has a child. Maybe my sister wanted to bring him a movie to watch. Well why'd she have to take my movie? Peter Pan is special to me!!!! Very special! Not to mention I was the one who actually bought the dvd, back in March. Well, I paid. My dad bought it for me with my money while I was at church. I want my Peter Pan back.

Also Peter Pan related...ahaha, I had some disney reward points about to expire and decided that instead of wasting them, I'd use them. I got Peter Pan temporary tattoos! hahaha. They should arrive in 6-8 weeks! =]

Whats new with me? Not much. I pretty much feel like crap right now though. I've got a tickle in my throat making me constantly want to cough, my head kind of hurts and I feel real out of it. But on the bright side, my ipod is happy. I've actually finally used about a gig of its memory! Thanks much to Alyssa and Erika for helping me! Oh, and Megan! She helped alot too. No, I didn't illegally download anything. ahahah. My ipod being happy makes me happy.

Ugh...I'm bored. I could go to sleep, but that would be silly. Its only 7:30 and I don't want to be awake at 3 in the morning. Well, not if thats when I'm getting up. If thats when I'm going to bed, sure...ahahaha. So what does a person who doesn't feel well do to occupy herself besides listening to music? No clue, thats why I'm asking! ahahah

~Samantha~

'Cause Obviously...

*sings* She's out of my league, I'm wasting my time 'cause she'll never be mine! And I know I never will be good enough for her! *stops singing.*

Oh gosh, I'm sorry, here have some gauze. I didn't mean to make your ears bleed! ahahaha. In case you're wondering the song, I was singing "Obviously" from the great band McFLY. My shout outs to Tom, Danny, Dougie and Harry. I'm listening to them right now. I love them. ahahah.

Anyway, on to more useless things. ahaha. No, McFly isn't useless, the fact that I'm listening to them is. ahahaha. As usual I really have nothing to talk about. So I decided I'd throw some random facts about me out there. You ready? These facts are so exciting you may just fall out of your chair. Wait, do you smell that? The sweet scent of sarcasm. ahaha =D

• My favorite color is green. Oh I know, thats some interesting stuff right there.
• I can unwrap a starburst in my mouth.
• I suffer from MCS, Middle Child Syndrome. The most famous person diagnosed with this, Jan Brady.
• I share a birthday with cool people like B.B. King, Peter Falk*aka Columbo* Alexis Bledel, Teddy Geiger, Sabrina Bryan, the girl who plays Terri on Degrassi, Nick Jonas and my personal favorite, Garbo's Grandma! I told my mom all the cool people were born on September 16th. And everyone else born in September is pretty cool too. =]
• Never seen any of the Columbo movies. ahaha, they are movies right? I know, here, have a complimentry pitch fork and torch. Give me a five second head start alright?
• I really want to learn to play guitar.
• I love musicals! yes its true.
• I'm terrified of sharks, creepy looking dolls, spiders, failure, rejection, being alone, and losing someone I love.
• Roller coasters scare me. But I'd ride one if a cute guy asked me too...ahaha. Unless it was a really really, practically touch the sky, big one. Then I'd just walk away.
• I tend to quote movies and tv shows.

So thats all I can think of right now. Thats how boring anyway...Well, I guess I'm done...Maybe I should go do something educational if I don't want to sleep... Psh...No! ahaha.

~Samantha~

Saturdays...Are they always this boring?

So, as all cool people know, Greg Garbo had a contest, to see who could come up with a Naraffe Girwhal. I saw the four he chose. They were amazing. Congrats to them on their amazing creations. =] Above you can see mine. ahahah. I tried. =D Make sure you click it to make it bigger so you can read it!

Today has been totally uneventful. Jonas Brothers tickets went on sale for the venue closest to me, but as mentioned in previous blogs, I have no job(I looked, but everyone knows Michigan is the econmically worst state. Did I phrase that right? Probably not...oh well) and simply could not afford a ticket. Which sucks because last I checked, it wasn't even sold out yet. What is wrong with you Michigan? Go see Kevin, Nick, Joe, John, Jack and Garbo!

I didn't go to bed till 4, so I got my good 8 hours of sleep and woke up around 12ish. I got online, checked to see if tickets were still available(which as I juct mentioned, they were.), checked myspace, email, Imdb. Nothing going on really. I ate a hamburger, played games on psych.usanetwork.com(btw, Shawn and Gus hired me! ahaha. too bad not really.). Ashleigh called me...We talked for a few... ahaha.

Then my dad told me my mom was gonna take me to dinner and then take me to go see Menopause the Musical. Now, being only 17, I probably wouldn't enjoy it nearly as much as a 50 year old woman, but I thought "What the heck, it'll give me something to do tonight." Well Dad was wrong! I'm not going. She's taking her hairdresser....She isn't even a good hairdresser....

So here I am, been up for 5 hours and have done absolutely nothing this whole day. And I don't anticipate anything exciting or fun to occur before I go to bed around 1 a.m.ish so I can get some sleep before church. I'm really bored out of my mind.... Maybe I should join the circus....I'll do clown make up, or scoop elephant droppings... Maybe then I'll have something to talk about when I blog. ahahahha.

Kudos Erika for figuring out my not so secret message! ahahah

~Samantha~

Rising Stress Factor...

Ok Dudes and Dudettes! Are you seeing a pattern here? Because I am. I almost never having anything interesting or exciting or even semi-happy to blog about. Thats slightly depressing now isn't it? Oh well, I'll try to have a more exciting life for ya, but for now, let me do my expression of feelings. ahah. Remember, sharing is caring.

So, I have a gazillion projects and essays to do for school. You'd think homeschooling would be a tad bit easier on you, but really, no, no its not. I need to do them and stop procrastinating. Maybe I should go do them now....Haha, no. Now would be bad.

I started to clean my room earlier. The last time it was clean was my birthday back in September(16th! Remember that, ok?). Now I honestly don't blame myself for my whole room being a disaster. See... I live in a small house. On top of that, there are 4 other people in the house and two animals. My sister and I used to share one room, but then my parents decided to make me share with my brother, who is 5 and a half years younger than me. Scratch that...My mom made me. Well, the bunk bed we used broke, so then we were short a bed. So, now my brother sleeps on the couch, but all his stuff stays in my room. That adds to the clutter. Then, my sister decides my room is also the place to store stuff. On top of that, everything that doesn't have an exact place ends up in my room. I found a book in there today about learning to be a leader in your church. Thats not my book. I do help in the church, in nursery and Master Club, but I'm not a leader, nor do I plan on becoming one. So where did this book come from? Who knows...

So, I have at least one thing of someone else's in my room...Plus Sean's dresser, my dresser....A bookshelf and some drawers that used to be a part of a bunk bed from many moons ago, when I was around the age of 11... My bed and a computer for my school. My room is small. And very cluttered. Its pretty much hopeless.

I forgot what I started this blog for...Oh well...I'm just trying to listen to my music and calm myself because my brother has been driving me nuts. You wanna know what I'm listening? Aw, thats so sweet of you to care. ahaha. Its a playlist on my Ipod of only 17 songs including Jonas Brothers, McFLY, Boys Like Girls, Teddy Geiger, Bowling For Soup, Rascal Flatts, Backstreet Boys, Aly and Aj, Bobby Day, Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey. ahaha. There ya go...Thats what I'm listening to.

If you read this, God Bless you. I know, I'm boring. But hey, what can I say?

~Samantha~

Ooh, figure out what the secret message is and you'll get a virtual hug or something. ahaha...

My day wasn't bad! My dad's friend told my dad I had a nice smile. I don't even recall smiling at him. ahaha. Guess being called smileymiley isn't all about my last name...ahaha.

Growing up stinks! Where's Peter Pan when you need him?

I hate it. I'm terrified. I'm 17, and I never have money. Quite simply put, I need a job. But I'm incredibly shy when it comes to things like this for my big fear of rejection. I won't be good enough...If by some miracle I get a job, I won't do well. Another fear...Failure... I don't know what to do. My friend already told me she'd come with me to get applications. Probably to Walmart, Meijer(don't know if you gotta be 18 or not, since they don't have baggers anymore...) and Starbucks. Do you even know how hard it will be for me to even walk in there and say, "Hello, I was wondering if I could get an application for a job here?" I hate being like this.

If by some miracle I get a job...I'll probably have to ride the bus...Ugh. I don't like public transportation...Why can't I live in a small town or something? Why don't we have a bookstore here I could maybe work at? Or a closer mall? My only choices are fast food places and Walmart basically... Ugh. Maybe I worry too much...Or maybe I'm right...

It seems like just yesterday I was 14... And now....Well...I'm not. I'll be 18 in September...Soon(hopefully) I'll be done with high school and I'll be going to college... I'm growing up quicker than I want to...And you know what? I haven't even experienced alot of things, and I partially blame me....Never been to a school dance, or football game(don't even go to public anymore...). Never been on a date...I don't hang out with many people...Being a teenager sucks.....

I'm scared...And I don't know what to do... Why can't I have been talented and become a rockstar or television personal so I wouldn't have to worry about jobs and missing social experiences?

~Samantha~

Third try...

This is the third time in the past two days I've tried to blog about something, but couldn't gather the words that accurately fit what I wanted to say. So forgetting either of those attempted blogs, let me try to blog.

New Years day I woke to have my mind filled with "what ifs" and "I should of's". I was questioning tons of things, because simply, it was 2008. If I had stayed in public schools, I would be graduating for sure this summer. I would probably be entering a college in the fall, and planning on moving out. But instead, I'm questioning whether I'll even graduate '08, and if college is really in my future. Lord knows I can't afford it. And I don' t know what I want to do with my life anyway, so what would be the point?

All the negativity was kind of bringing me down, but it was still making more questions in my mind surface. "What am I meant to do in life? Will I make a difference? Will I ever experience things of life, such as a first date, a first kiss, first love?" ahaha, yeah, the whole love thing doesn't exactly blend in with the school and purpose thing, but I was still thinking it.

I'm still not positive of whats all going on, but thanks to Erika, I have the hope that everything will be ok. I will graduate, even if I'm a year later than originally intended, I will go to college and I will find a way to make it work. I will major in something, and I will pay off all loans, if I use them.

I've also decided what I want to do with my life...I already pretty much knew this, and its still pretty vague. But again, thanks to Erika, and Clay Aiken, I've decided in some way I want to help people. I don't know how I'm going to do this, but I want to help someone. Even if its just one person.

I know this is kind of odd, and its kind of hard for me to put how I feel into words, but I haven't figured out another way to express myself yet, so this all I have for now...Wish me luck. ahah.

~Samantha~