Cedar Point.

It takes a few months for something interesting for me to blog about to happen. ahahah. But hopefully this is a good one. ahah. =]


Thursday, July 17th, I left and went to my friend, Ashleigh Doxtator's house. Her family had invited me to go to Cedar Point, an amusement park, with them. I accepted, even though I'm absolutely terrified of rollar coasters. After a sleepless night, on Friday, the 18th, around 5:00 a.m. we left for Ohio! The three and a half hour trip was kind of boring, but we survived. I won't give you the boring details of getting our tickets and everything.


Walking into the park, this lovely old man ripped my ticket. I was wearing my Les Miserables t-shirt. The old man goes, "That is the best show running on stage." I look down at my shirt.

"I agree!"

"You've seen it!?"

"Yes!"

"I've seen it four times."

I smiled and walked into the park. It was nice to converse with this old man. Ahaha. We had been let into the park an hour before it actually opened and some rides were open for us. We went to the nearest coaster, The Raptor, and debated getting on. Jessica, who is 8, unfortunately wasn't tall enough to get on the ride. Mr. Doxtator went with her to another coaster and told us to go on. I was practically shaking. I hadn't been to an amusement park in 6 years, and hadn't been on a coaster in about 12. And this looked terrifying to me. For visuals, here is a picture I found on photobucket of the Raptor. If you want to see a bigger picture, go look for one yourself.






Cedar Point's website describes the Raptor as this...

An inverted roller coaster, Raptor has seats similar to ski lift chairs, suspended below its inverted track. Riders see nothing but the sky and track above them, and nothing but their dangling feet below - just a few feet above the ground! Raptor passengers also tumble head over heels six times!

I honestly can't tell you much about the ride. Why you ask? Because my eyes were squeezed shut and I was gripping the seat with all my strength. As I said, not a fan of roller coasters.

After that, Mrs. Doxtator, Hunter, Ashleigh and I headed for the Millenium Force.

The line was huge. I got all the way through it and then chickened out. That hill looked huge and I just couldn't do it. This lady was trying to reassure me I'd have fun, but I was panicking. There was just no way I could get on. Ashleigh said the guy that sat next to her said this...

"She couldn't do it? Too scared? Aww, that's sad." And he didn't say it mockingly, he said it regretfully. It was sad though. Jessica is 8 and she got on it. But it was reassuring that she didn't like it. ahaha.

By this time, our whole group is together again and we head for the Mantis. The only roller coaster in Ohio where you are standing on your own two feet for the whole ride.

The track was huge, and it twisted a lot, and went upside down! I didn't want to go on...But I did. Like with the Raptor, my eyes stayed shut. I didn't like this one much at all. You had to stand a certain way, and my head was banged around a lot. It was annoying. I was glad to hear that no one else except Hunter liked it either.

Right next to The Mantis, was the Iron Dragon. This one didn't look so bad to me. You can't see the whole coaster in this one, but....

I, surprisingly, loved this one. I kept my eyes open, and I enjoyed it. At times it looked like you were gonna hit some trees, or fly in the water, but it was awesome. I loved it.

Right after that, Mrs. Doxtator said she was feeling sick. She was in the bathroom forever, and then we went to the first aid station. We sat in there for forever. Jessica was getting antsy, so after riding the tea cups, which were right outside, twice with Hunter, she wanted to go on the Power Tower. Mr. Doxtator asked Ashleigh and I to stay in the first aid station while Hunter, Jessica and Him left, so we did. They said they'd be back soon. They were gone an hour and a half. An hour after they'd left, Mrs. Doxtator came out. We waited a half hour before they finally came back. They had rode the Power Tower twice, and then the Top Thrill Dragster. In case you've never heard of that, I swear, its got to be one of the biggest coasters in the United States, and the lines are huge. They waited fourty minutes for it. Since Mrs. D was still sick, we left. We hadn't been there very long, four hours tops, but two was spent in the first aid... On the way to our hotel, Castaway Bay, all Jessica would talk about was the Top Thrill Dragster and how much she loved it. It was so annoying. Cute, but annoying. We went to our room and after a little while, Everyone but Mrs. D went to lunch. We went to TGI Fridays. Just because I know you're curious, I had a bacon cheeseburger with water. ahahah. So did Ashleigh and Hunter. Ashleigh and I were exhausted, as neither of us had slept the night before. So after lunch, we went and napped.

Around 6 o' clock, Mr. D wakes us up and ask if we want to go back to Cedar Point. Hunter, Jessica and I say yes, but Ashleigh, my ride buddy, said no! She wanted to sleep! I was like, "You're kidding me!" But she was not. So we left without her and Mrs. D.

The first ride Jessica wanted to go on was the Demon Drop. I wasn't going on it. ahaha, So they went on. Jessica then started with..."POWER TOWER! LETS GO ON THE POWER TOWER AGAIN! COME ON COME ON COME ON!!!" I really didn't want to. This is what it looks like if you look up at it.

And here is another view.

It is 240 feet high...and being afraid of heights...I really really really didn't want to go on....But I did.... And I was terrified. As it took off, I thought my stomach was gonna fly out of my mouth. And then it went down...Just as fast. Again, I thought I was gonna throw up... Mr. D kept saying,

"Open your eyes Sam! Open them!" I opened them for about one second, Then shut them again. It was scary.

We went back to the Iron Dragon then, and rode it twice more. Since Ashleigh wasn't there to ride with me, I rode with Hunter instead. He was my new ride buddy. The Corkscrew was right there, so we rode that too. I liked it, but my eyes were closed yet again.

After that, they wanted to go on the Top Thrill Dragster...Again....

The Top Thrill Dragster is 420 feet high I believe, and goes 120 mph. I didn't care that it only lasts about 17 seconds. I wasn't getting on it. There is only one person in this world that I think could even have a shot at convincing me to go on that thing, and that person will never try I'm sure...Hahah. So even though I'd have to wait forever, I waited for them. Jessica, who couldn't stop talking about how much she loved the Top Thrill Dragster earlier, chickened out! She said she loved it, but then cried hysterically when she got on. I was so confused. Ahahaha.

We were making her way to the Gemini, when we saw Monster. A spinning ride. I can't find a picture, but it was ok. A bit nauseating, but ok. ahaha.

Then we were to the Gemini. A classic wooden coaster. Again, you can't see it all, but I loved it. I believe it went 130 feet in the air, dropped you 118 and went 60 mph. Kept my eyes open for this one. ahaha. Rode it twice.

And this morning, Sunday, we saw it on the Travel Channel! Its a classic like I said. ahah.

Then they went on the Magnum. My feet were killing me...My shoes were squeezing my pinky toes. I really didn't want to stand in line. So I waited for them. I should of gone on. It was the one ride they decided to buy a picture of...You know, where the camera snaps a picture of you on the ride? haha. After that we left though. It was about 15 minutes till closing time so we just left. We went to Walmart and bought some food and went back to the hotel. After a shower, I went to sleep.

Alas! Saturday is there! And after some poptarts, we went to Castaway Bay's indoor waterpark. First, we went on the Pineapple Pipeline, a yellow waterslide, in honor of the new season of Psych. If you don't know what Psych is, or what pineapples have to do with it, you clearly are not well educated in good entertainment. ahah. Then we went on a green waterslide, and then we went to Rendevous Run. It was like, this waterslide, but you're in a raft, and you go down this hill and it shoots you up and you go through all these tubes...Like a water roller coaster. It was awesome. He went on it 6 or 7 times. We also went in the wave pool, on the tube slides, which were really fast, the hot tub, and stood under the water bucket thing. ahahah. After about an hour and a half, I got bored. Not kidding. We left for a while, then came back...I was still bored. I developed a head ache and Ashleigh and I went back to the room. Shortly after, the rest of the group came back and we went to TGI Friday's for dinner. It was attatched to the hotel. Our waiter was from a city about 30 minutes from where I live! Anyway, because I know you're curious again, I had parmasean crusted chicken which came with a tomato salad and alfredo spinich tortellini. It was delicious. I hate spinich, but it was good. And the portion was just right, like the menu said. I also had a pepsi. Despite the menu saying they had coke, they didn't, because they're owned by Cedar Point.

Not much worth saying happened after that. We went to bed, packed up, checked out, hung out in the arcade....I played Deal or No Deal. Haha, I won ten tickets. Ashleigh and I put what few tickets we had together, and each got some small trinkets. I got a foam dice...or Di..... Finger cuffs, not the chinese ones.... a little plastic dinosaur and vampire fangs, so I can be a fake vampire. We all know real vampires don't have fangs. ahaha. We also went to one of the gift shops... Nick Knacks. The other two weren't open at the time. I had only ten dollars, and everything was expensive. But I found a four dollar Cedar Point snow globe(more like glitter globe) and a six dollar key chain. I bought those. If I tell you what the key chain said, promise not to laugh? It said...Or says..."I Heart Kevin." Ok, go ahead, laugh. Just supporting Kevin Jonas. Not that I don't support his brothers! I support them all! I just didn't have 18 dollars. I'll get you a picture... ahah.

Snow Globe

Kevchain. haha, I mean, Key chain.

When we were finished with our purchases, we stopped at Wendy's, ate lunch and headed home. We stopped at an outfitters place, Cabelas....Newtons Outfitters has nothing on this place. Haha, This place was like an outdoor lover's mall!!!!! They had huge displays, a restaurant...Tons of stuff. Check out their site...

http://www.cabelas.com/

Once we finished looking around there and taking a picture outside where the two bears were fighting(not real of course) we finished the drive home. The Doxtators dropped me off and then I spent an hour or so making this blog. Sorry that I didn't tell it in my best story mode, I was just too bored to do it. Sorry. More pictures to come after the Doxtators send me them.

Over all, I had a lot of fun. I wouldn't say I exactly conquered my fear of roller coasters, but for the most part, i did face them and I would totally go on those rollar coasters again. And I'd go on the ones I didn't get the opportunity to try. So who wants to come with me next time? ahah.

~Samantha~

P.S. All the pictures up there, except for the last two, my souveniers, I didn't take them. I do not own them. I found them online.

Isn't it great?

There is always a song to describe exactly what you're feeling or thinking...I love that. Its the power of music..... Thats all I have to say.

Long time no blog!

So, its been a little over two weeks since I last blogged, so since I'm bored, I figure I'll catch you up. My brother's birthday was on the 11th, how good for him right? ahaha. He turned 12. On the 7th I believe it was, my cousin comments me on myspace asking me to go to some lockin with her at her boyfriend's church. I was unsure about going, but I decided to anyway. It wasn't bad. ahah. Amanda's boyfriend asked me to bear his child. ahaha. I said no. They also tried to get me to touch this one guy's chest, and grab his butt. I did not, needless to say. I'm not that type of girl and it was very awkward. Haha, but other than the few awkward moments, I had a decent time. Plus I managed to stay awake almost the whole time. I got maybe 10 minutes of sleep.
I bought a hat at walmart on sunday...Its green, has snoopy on it and says I love nerds. I love it. ahaha. Yesterday was St. Patricks Day, and my mom decided to embrace the fact that we are part irish and make us eat corned beef and cabbage. I didn't like it.... ahaha. I ended up eating cereal instead. Yum! ahahah. Honey Bunches of Oats! ahaha
Oh yeah! Hahaha, I'm pretty much an idiot...ahaha. My brother got guitar hero 2 and 3 for his birthday. Its fun, I beat both on easy....ahaha, but I can barely play on medium. ahahah. Like, really, barely. Maybe I should stick to Kingdom Hearts 2....Nah, I like Guitar Hero. ahahah.
So yeah, thats about all you've missed. Not much, I know...But haven't we learned by now I'm not very interesting? ahaha. Ooh, I can tell you this though, Yesterday I watched the 2007 movie TMNT! It rocked. I missed those turtles. And I also watched the first, and original 3 Ninjas. ahaha. I was a big fan of the turtles and the 3 ninjas as a kid.... I had all the movies...But my mom took them away when my brother decided he wanted to try those moves on me... She also took away Tekken and Bloody Roar. What was I supposed to do then without my ninja movies and violent video games? ahaha.

Ladies and Gentlemen!

Today, I experienced something monumental! My first taste of Ben & Jerry's Ice cream. I had the flavor Chunky Monkey. Now, this is a flavor frowned upon by Erika, Kevin and Corry, the only people I know of that don't like bananas, but I myself enjoyed it immensely. I know you are all extremely curious as to how such a pivotal moment in my life finally occurred and this is why I will share with you how this came about.



At approximately 12:10 p.m. eastern standard time, my mother and I arrived home from church to find my father watching a show on the national geographic channel. This show was all about discovering how some of the worlds most loved sweet treats were made. They included jelly belly beans, licorice, peeps, and Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream. I merely exclaimed I had never had the pleasure to grace my taste buds with the what appeared to be delicious B&J's ice cream. Being the incredibly amazing man he is, my father drove down to the store and brought me back some Ben and Jerry's. It was delicious.

~Samantha~

March is here children!

What does that mean? Well, it means we won't see February 29th again until I'm 21 years old, and also that I know many with birthdays this month. My brother's is on the 11th, my cousin's is on the 20th, and Beth's is the 21st. Wow. What a shame I'll be broke and will ony be able to get them cards. Which reminds me, I need to mail Merry a birthday card...Her birthday was a couple days ago. Whoops.

So, its a saturday, and I'm bored. I know, shocking isn't it? ahahaha. So I read Garbo's blog today, and he said his sister will be attending college in the fall. This leads me to believe she is close to my age. Which also caused me to start thinking about college again. Ugh....Growing up is hard. But I don't feel like blogging about that, so changing subject right about now...

As always, this blog is pretty much pointless. So, since this was just some sort of, "I'm completely bored out of my mind, oh I know, lets rant in a blog." entry, I'm just going to leave now...ahaha.

Question....

What is the most played song you have on your music player? Or if you don't have one, what song do you think you listen to the most?

~Samantha~

Happy Monday All!

Ok, I know you all probably don't enjoy mondays, in fact, I don't know many who do, but its a gift from God anyway, so enjoy it. Make mondays fun! I attempt to. Haha, I was just dancing like a mad person. It was really fun though. Dancing is fun. I would love to take lessons so it doesn't look like I'm having a seizure or something next time I'm dancing.a hahaha. But I have fun with it, so I guess it really shouldn't matter. ahaha. =D I just said fun alot. ahaha. Don't I have an extensive vocabulary?

So last night was the Academy Awards. Did anyone watch? I did. I can't stand how there are commercials after every two awards, but I do enjoy finding out who won, and seeing George Clooney in a bow tie. Haha, come on, you know for his age he's handsome. ahaha. I would love to attend the Academy Awards one day....I'd love to win one! ahaha. I know what you're thinking, "What would you like to win one for?" Well, Best Actress silly! ahaha. Jk, I really don't think I will be pursuing an acting career. But I am planning on pursuing a writing career, so Original Screenplay. Or, when Erika becomes a famous director, if she lets me help direct something....ahahahaha. Don't laugh people! Dream big! =D

So, question for all of you people who take the time to read my blog(bless you all), care to share one of your big dreams? If you don't have one, you need to get one. Dreaming makes life better. It really does.

~Samantha~

Hola Mi Amigas!!! Or Amigos!

Hahaha. Did you enjoy that? Thats about the extent of my knowledge of the spanish language. Oh yeah, and I can count to about twenty. ahaha. Anyway...
Did we all have a good Single Awareness Day? Haha. Mine was like any other day! I hope you all had a decent one.
Yesterday was my mother's birthday, and since she doesn't care, I'll tell you her age. She turned 47 years young. Haha, thats not old people, not to mention she thought she was turning 48. Haha. But I corrected her by showing her the math. Her mind is fleeting... ahaha.
Right now I'm listening to music waiting for my ipod to charge, while sending emails to Erika's phone. ahaha. Also, I'm enjoying a glass of moo juice. Well, sorta. haha. I don't like how it tastes at the moment. ahaha.
Well, if blog isn't totally pointless as of right now. Haha. But come on people, you're used to it. I'm boring, I have nothing to tell you about. Well, except my dreams...but those are weird and I don't feel like sharing those. Especially if by some chance the people that grace them somehow stumble across this blog. But lets just say over the past week in my dreams I almost married a boy( a very good looking boy who's name I will not mention) but I wanted his older brother who I was in love with(and he was in love with me) who got into an accident and was somehow saved by bacon being fried, rode a talking polor bear into an alternate demension, visited a friend in the burn unit of a hospital(not really someone I know) and been chased by some creepy person. So yeah... I don't know what the heck causes my dreams, but...ahaha.

Oh! Thats something I could talk about! Hahaha. I thought of something! Yay me! ahaha. So Twilight, the novel by Stephenie Meyer is being turned into a movie. I'm very excited. Yesterday a picture of the Cullen clan was put up, and I gotta say...Jackson Rathbone, who will be potraying Jasper Hale(Cullen),well...His hair horrifies me. It looks like a bad wig... I love Jasper...I hope his hair looks better on screen. ahaha.
Also, ok, so I looked up the people playing the Cullens. Well,Rosalie, Carlisle and Jasper are all blondes. The people potraying them? All original brunettes. ahahaha. I thought that was funny. They couldn't find any natural blondes who fit the criteria? ahaha. Oh well. The movie should rock! I'm excited.

Hm...what other pointless things could I talk about...Hmmm. I'm at a loss. ahaha. Um... Well...Yeah I got nothing. So I guess thats all for now. Adios!

~Samantha~

Nothing quite like it!

My dad decided to treat himself to a little something special today. He bought himself a cd. And what a lovely cd my father purchesed, Fergie-The Dutchess. There really is nothing quite like listening to your 51 year old father singing "Big Girls Don't Cry." Its so glamorous, glamorous.

Haha, ok, so that last bit was cheap, but hey, if I made you smile, I did my job. Its friday afternoon, and I really should be doing school right now, but instead I am blogging about pretty useless information. Well, since I don't want to waste my time for nothing, I'll talk about something important to me.

The Jonas Brothers, i.e. my favorite band, kicked off their "Look Me In The Eyes" tour just about a week ago. I sadly, do not have the pleasure of going to see them and their amazing back up band even though they will be a mere 50 minute or so drive from here. How frustrating for me. But, Erika, My best friend in the entire world, got to see them last Saturday. Let me tell you, it sounds amazing. If you can, go see the show. You won't regret it, you'll have a blast. And if you don't, it will be because you choose to make yourself have a miserable time. Erika also poned everyone at that show, well almost everyone. Haha, I don't feel like explaining why, but basically everyone there testified Nick is hers. ahahaha. Also, they are playing my favorite song on this new tour. I thought that they'd never play it again...But they did. "Underdog" it be called. If you haven't heard of it till recently, shame on you! But seriously, check out the show, I've seen the videos on youtube. Its amazing. Haha, Trash cans and fire extinguishers. Life is good.

Garbo, JB's bass player, has a blog. You can find the link on the left side of my blog, its called "Lets Go On Tour." Check it out. Not only is this guy an amazing musician, but he is also one of the funniest guys in the world. I love reading his blogs. And if you read his latest one, you may find yourself sympathizing with him as I did. Really, read his blog.

Who watched the Super Bowl on Sunday? Me too!!! Who rooted for the Patriots? They lost! ahaha. I was so glad they did. Giants all the way baby! Now believe it or not, I actually love the Colts, but it was time for the other Manning to win. =D Kudos Eli and team!!!

Well now that I'm done stealing all my dad's Fergie songs, I'm gonna charge my ipod, take a shower and see if I can force myself to get some education in.

Live Long and Prosper! ahahah. No idea why I said that. I'm not a Trekky. Haha. That is from Star Trek Right? Yeah yeah, shoot me if you must. ahahah

~Samantha~

Identity Theft!

My identity has been stolen! By none other than Miley Cyrus!!!! hahahahahaha. Ok, I'm kidding. Well...Sorta... You see, I heard yesterday that Miley legally changed her name from Destiny Hope Cyrus to Miley Ray Cyrus. If that is so, she has now legally changed her first name to what has always been legally my last name, and her middle name, legally to an alternate spelling of my middle name. Next is she going to take my first name too???? I like Miley, and I find this hilarious, but its kind of annoying too...

Btw, my sister does have Peter Pan! Hopefully I'll get it back tomorrow.

~Samantha~

Come Back Peter Pan!!!!

Whats up with the title? Simple really. My sister stole my platinum edition Peter Pan dvd. Ok, so I'm not positive she did, but I pretty much believe it. Why would she do that? Because, she just moved in with her friend Amber, who has a child. Maybe my sister wanted to bring him a movie to watch. Well why'd she have to take my movie? Peter Pan is special to me!!!! Very special! Not to mention I was the one who actually bought the dvd, back in March. Well, I paid. My dad bought it for me with my money while I was at church. I want my Peter Pan back.

Also Peter Pan related...ahaha, I had some disney reward points about to expire and decided that instead of wasting them, I'd use them. I got Peter Pan temporary tattoos! hahaha. They should arrive in 6-8 weeks! =]

Whats new with me? Not much. I pretty much feel like crap right now though. I've got a tickle in my throat making me constantly want to cough, my head kind of hurts and I feel real out of it. But on the bright side, my ipod is happy. I've actually finally used about a gig of its memory! Thanks much to Alyssa and Erika for helping me! Oh, and Megan! She helped alot too. No, I didn't illegally download anything. ahahah. My ipod being happy makes me happy.

Ugh...I'm bored. I could go to sleep, but that would be silly. Its only 7:30 and I don't want to be awake at 3 in the morning. Well, not if thats when I'm getting up. If thats when I'm going to bed, sure...ahahaha. So what does a person who doesn't feel well do to occupy herself besides listening to music? No clue, thats why I'm asking! ahahah

~Samantha~

'Cause Obviously...

*sings* She's out of my league, I'm wasting my time 'cause she'll never be mine! And I know I never will be good enough for her! *stops singing.*

Oh gosh, I'm sorry, here have some gauze. I didn't mean to make your ears bleed! ahahaha. In case you're wondering the song, I was singing "Obviously" from the great band McFLY. My shout outs to Tom, Danny, Dougie and Harry. I'm listening to them right now. I love them. ahahah.

Anyway, on to more useless things. ahaha. No, McFly isn't useless, the fact that I'm listening to them is. ahahaha. As usual I really have nothing to talk about. So I decided I'd throw some random facts about me out there. You ready? These facts are so exciting you may just fall out of your chair. Wait, do you smell that? The sweet scent of sarcasm. ahaha =D

• My favorite color is green. Oh I know, thats some interesting stuff right there.
• I can unwrap a starburst in my mouth.
• I suffer from MCS, Middle Child Syndrome. The most famous person diagnosed with this, Jan Brady.
• I share a birthday with cool people like B.B. King, Peter Falk*aka Columbo* Alexis Bledel, Teddy Geiger, Sabrina Bryan, the girl who plays Terri on Degrassi, Nick Jonas and my personal favorite, Garbo's Grandma! I told my mom all the cool people were born on September 16th. And everyone else born in September is pretty cool too. =]
• Never seen any of the Columbo movies. ahaha, they are movies right? I know, here, have a complimentry pitch fork and torch. Give me a five second head start alright?
• I really want to learn to play guitar.
• I love musicals! yes its true.
• I'm terrified of sharks, creepy looking dolls, spiders, failure, rejection, being alone, and losing someone I love.
• Roller coasters scare me. But I'd ride one if a cute guy asked me too...ahaha. Unless it was a really really, practically touch the sky, big one. Then I'd just walk away.
• I tend to quote movies and tv shows.

So thats all I can think of right now. Thats how boring anyway...Well, I guess I'm done...Maybe I should go do something educational if I don't want to sleep... Psh...No! ahaha.

~Samantha~

Saturdays...Are they always this boring?

So, as all cool people know, Greg Garbo had a contest, to see who could come up with a Naraffe Girwhal. I saw the four he chose. They were amazing. Congrats to them on their amazing creations. =] Above you can see mine. ahahah. I tried. =D Make sure you click it to make it bigger so you can read it!

Today has been totally uneventful. Jonas Brothers tickets went on sale for the venue closest to me, but as mentioned in previous blogs, I have no job(I looked, but everyone knows Michigan is the econmically worst state. Did I phrase that right? Probably not...oh well) and simply could not afford a ticket. Which sucks because last I checked, it wasn't even sold out yet. What is wrong with you Michigan? Go see Kevin, Nick, Joe, John, Jack and Garbo!

I didn't go to bed till 4, so I got my good 8 hours of sleep and woke up around 12ish. I got online, checked to see if tickets were still available(which as I juct mentioned, they were.), checked myspace, email, Imdb. Nothing going on really. I ate a hamburger, played games on psych.usanetwork.com(btw, Shawn and Gus hired me! ahaha. too bad not really.). Ashleigh called me...We talked for a few... ahaha.

Then my dad told me my mom was gonna take me to dinner and then take me to go see Menopause the Musical. Now, being only 17, I probably wouldn't enjoy it nearly as much as a 50 year old woman, but I thought "What the heck, it'll give me something to do tonight." Well Dad was wrong! I'm not going. She's taking her hairdresser....She isn't even a good hairdresser....

So here I am, been up for 5 hours and have done absolutely nothing this whole day. And I don't anticipate anything exciting or fun to occur before I go to bed around 1 a.m.ish so I can get some sleep before church. I'm really bored out of my mind.... Maybe I should join the circus....I'll do clown make up, or scoop elephant droppings... Maybe then I'll have something to talk about when I blog. ahahahha.

Kudos Erika for figuring out my not so secret message! ahahah

~Samantha~

Rising Stress Factor...

Ok Dudes and Dudettes! Are you seeing a pattern here? Because I am. I almost never having anything interesting or exciting or even semi-happy to blog about. Thats slightly depressing now isn't it? Oh well, I'll try to have a more exciting life for ya, but for now, let me do my expression of feelings. ahah. Remember, sharing is caring.

So, I have a gazillion projects and essays to do for school. You'd think homeschooling would be a tad bit easier on you, but really, no, no its not. I need to do them and stop procrastinating. Maybe I should go do them now....Haha, no. Now would be bad.

I started to clean my room earlier. The last time it was clean was my birthday back in September(16th! Remember that, ok?). Now I honestly don't blame myself for my whole room being a disaster. See... I live in a small house. On top of that, there are 4 other people in the house and two animals. My sister and I used to share one room, but then my parents decided to make me share with my brother, who is 5 and a half years younger than me. Scratch that...My mom made me. Well, the bunk bed we used broke, so then we were short a bed. So, now my brother sleeps on the couch, but all his stuff stays in my room. That adds to the clutter. Then, my sister decides my room is also the place to store stuff. On top of that, everything that doesn't have an exact place ends up in my room. I found a book in there today about learning to be a leader in your church. Thats not my book. I do help in the church, in nursery and Master Club, but I'm not a leader, nor do I plan on becoming one. So where did this book come from? Who knows...

So, I have at least one thing of someone else's in my room...Plus Sean's dresser, my dresser....A bookshelf and some drawers that used to be a part of a bunk bed from many moons ago, when I was around the age of 11... My bed and a computer for my school. My room is small. And very cluttered. Its pretty much hopeless.

I forgot what I started this blog for...Oh well...I'm just trying to listen to my music and calm myself because my brother has been driving me nuts. You wanna know what I'm listening? Aw, thats so sweet of you to care. ahaha. Its a playlist on my Ipod of only 17 songs including Jonas Brothers, McFLY, Boys Like Girls, Teddy Geiger, Bowling For Soup, Rascal Flatts, Backstreet Boys, Aly and Aj, Bobby Day, Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey. ahaha. There ya go...Thats what I'm listening to.

If you read this, God Bless you. I know, I'm boring. But hey, what can I say?

~Samantha~

Ooh, figure out what the secret message is and you'll get a virtual hug or something. ahaha...

My day wasn't bad! My dad's friend told my dad I had a nice smile. I don't even recall smiling at him. ahaha. Guess being called smileymiley isn't all about my last name...ahaha.

Growing up stinks! Where's Peter Pan when you need him?

I hate it. I'm terrified. I'm 17, and I never have money. Quite simply put, I need a job. But I'm incredibly shy when it comes to things like this for my big fear of rejection. I won't be good enough...If by some miracle I get a job, I won't do well. Another fear...Failure... I don't know what to do. My friend already told me she'd come with me to get applications. Probably to Walmart, Meijer(don't know if you gotta be 18 or not, since they don't have baggers anymore...) and Starbucks. Do you even know how hard it will be for me to even walk in there and say, "Hello, I was wondering if I could get an application for a job here?" I hate being like this.

If by some miracle I get a job...I'll probably have to ride the bus...Ugh. I don't like public transportation...Why can't I live in a small town or something? Why don't we have a bookstore here I could maybe work at? Or a closer mall? My only choices are fast food places and Walmart basically... Ugh. Maybe I worry too much...Or maybe I'm right...

It seems like just yesterday I was 14... And now....Well...I'm not. I'll be 18 in September...Soon(hopefully) I'll be done with high school and I'll be going to college... I'm growing up quicker than I want to...And you know what? I haven't even experienced alot of things, and I partially blame me....Never been to a school dance, or football game(don't even go to public anymore...). Never been on a date...I don't hang out with many people...Being a teenager sucks.....

I'm scared...And I don't know what to do... Why can't I have been talented and become a rockstar or television personal so I wouldn't have to worry about jobs and missing social experiences?

~Samantha~

Third try...

This is the third time in the past two days I've tried to blog about something, but couldn't gather the words that accurately fit what I wanted to say. So forgetting either of those attempted blogs, let me try to blog.

New Years day I woke to have my mind filled with "what ifs" and "I should of's". I was questioning tons of things, because simply, it was 2008. If I had stayed in public schools, I would be graduating for sure this summer. I would probably be entering a college in the fall, and planning on moving out. But instead, I'm questioning whether I'll even graduate '08, and if college is really in my future. Lord knows I can't afford it. And I don' t know what I want to do with my life anyway, so what would be the point?

All the negativity was kind of bringing me down, but it was still making more questions in my mind surface. "What am I meant to do in life? Will I make a difference? Will I ever experience things of life, such as a first date, a first kiss, first love?" ahaha, yeah, the whole love thing doesn't exactly blend in with the school and purpose thing, but I was still thinking it.

I'm still not positive of whats all going on, but thanks to Erika, I have the hope that everything will be ok. I will graduate, even if I'm a year later than originally intended, I will go to college and I will find a way to make it work. I will major in something, and I will pay off all loans, if I use them.

I've also decided what I want to do with my life...I already pretty much knew this, and its still pretty vague. But again, thanks to Erika, and Clay Aiken, I've decided in some way I want to help people. I don't know how I'm going to do this, but I want to help someone. Even if its just one person.

I know this is kind of odd, and its kind of hard for me to put how I feel into words, but I haven't figured out another way to express myself yet, so this all I have for now...Wish me luck. ahah.

~Samantha~